Breaking the silence

Without freedom of thought there can be no suc...

Without freedom of thought there can be no such think as wisdom & no such thing as puclick liberty without freedom of speech, Benjamin Franklin (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I have stayed pretty quite about the whole Chick-fil-a business. I support everyone’s right to have the same legal options, and to be whoever they feel they are. I will not knowingly give my business to a company that in turn gives that money to anti-anything groups, and that includes anti-gay groups. I will not support hatred, that’s my opinion and I am entitled to it. Everyone has their own opinion and for the most part we are all free to express it.

There is something that bothers me though. I’ve heard a lot about how this is about “the right to free speech” not “boycotting a company for someone’s beliefs”. Well, okay, I’ll give you that…partly. The Corporate Chick-fil-a does knowingly support and donate to anti-gay groups, so it’s not just about the President of the company saying something.

That’s not what really bothers me though. You see everyone is up in arms because this christian President said he, personally and through his company, supports anti-gay groups because being gay is a sin and against the bible. I’m glad he can say that, freedom of speech all the way. I’m glad that the christian majority can yell as much and as loud as they want to about anything they believe and that they think everyone else should also think. Now we’re getting to the heart of my problem.

If myself or anyone else was to express any of our beliefs that oppose that christian majority we would risk not getting a job, getting fired from a job, losing custody of our children and in some cases death. So when will we have our freedom of speech? This freedom of speech thing seems a little lopsided to me. Does everyone have a freedom of speech and to live their life the best way they can in the way that they are most comfortable, or just the ones who strictly follow the bible?

Am I a christian? I won’t answer that. Do I believe in God? Yes, but I won’t discuss it further. To answer the why question: because I believe that everyone is free to believe however they want to believe, no matter the religion and/or spiritual path, as long as they try to live an honest, helpful, respectful life without bringing harm to others or themselves. As long as you show me respect, I will show you respect I don’t care what religion you are.

Granted there are a lot of others issue within this issue, but I think I’ll leave it for now and pick it up again if I feel I should.



English: Photograph of the skyline of Downtown...

English: Photograph of the skyline of Downtown Houston, Texas Español: Una foto del panorama urbano de Downtown Houston Category:Images of Houston, Texas (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I seem to be getting mentally stronger, more prepared and more confident. I know what I have to do, I know what is wrong in this aspect of my life, I just have to keep working.

I am still unsure why I am having such a problem getting a job, I am still being a bit picky because I want some place that I can have a career, I don’t just want a job. I’ve had jobs all my life, I went back to school for a career, and I know that I can do a good job. Everyday I feel like I am letting time pass me by. I would really like to make things happen faster, but they just aren’t and sometimes the impatient part of me causes me to stress out! I am, however, getting less picky all the time. I have stopped looking at just certain job titles, and have even decided that if I can figure out how to come up with the money I am extremely willing to move for a job. I can not however bring myself to move somewhere cold yet, or Texas or California.

I am not helping myself by stressing out over Ty. I feel like I have done that poor kid wrong and that I should have considered a move a long time ago. His social skills are just not good and we live in this “bass ackwards” place that doesn’t have anything for a person or kid to do if you don’t have a friend’s house to go to. Driving to the closest town in our county won’t do any good because theirs nothing there either, and driving to Clarksville is hard to do when I don’t even have gas money.

I’m crying for my little boy right now and trying to figure out how to help him and where in this “backwoods bubba” place I can find what I need to help him. I can’t regret the things that brought me here because what I’ve gained will forever be in my heart and life, but right now I can’t help but wonder what the hell I was thinking!

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