Busy, busy, busy

Day 37 Ducktape Rose

Day 37 Ducktape Rose (Photo credit: Scoobie1993)


I have had a busy few months going on lately. I started a new job in October and it has kept me on my toes. I started out as a customer service rep then got a title promotion to what they call a coach (which means I walked around helping the other customer service rep’s). My hours kept changing based on when they need coverage, but at the same time I had put in for a promotion to be a trainer with the company. It was a long process of interviews and I had to give a presentation; I chose to teach them how to make a duck tape rose. I found out last Thursday that I got the promotion and I start this coming Monday! I am so excited and happy that I can finally start putting that college education to use.


There are still many other things in my life that I am working on one day at a time, but today it is an IEP meeting at my Ty’s school. I am not looking forward to it, because I know it’s going to turn into an argument. I probably shouldn’t look at it like that, but going from past experience that’s what always happens. Today I am going to do what I should have done years ago and that is stand up for Ty and make them actually have a discussion with me. I found out when scheduling this meeting that they did not even bother to keep track of the report that I gave them from a highly respected pediatrician, which also means that they have not been working with Ty in regards to his dyslexia or dysgraphia.  I have already told them that we will be talking about that today and I have another copy of the report for them. I’m not sure what the best course of action is going to be, but it’s past time that I start trying to figure it out better!






English: Photograph of the skyline of Downtown...

English: Photograph of the skyline of Downtown Houston, Texas Español: Una foto del panorama urbano de Downtown Houston Category:Images of Houston, Texas (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I seem to be getting mentally stronger, more prepared and more confident. I know what I have to do, I know what is wrong in this aspect of my life, I just have to keep working.

I am still unsure why I am having such a problem getting a job, I am still being a bit picky because I want some place that I can have a career, I don’t just want a job. I’ve had jobs all my life, I went back to school for a career, and I know that I can do a good job. Everyday I feel like I am letting time pass me by. I would really like to make things happen faster, but they just aren’t and sometimes the impatient part of me causes me to stress out! I am, however, getting less picky all the time. I have stopped looking at just certain job titles, and have even decided that if I can figure out how to come up with the money I am extremely willing to move for a job. I can not however bring myself to move somewhere cold yet, or Texas or California.

I am not helping myself by stressing out over Ty. I feel like I have done that poor kid wrong and that I should have considered a move a long time ago. His social skills are just not good and we live in this “bass ackwards” place that doesn’t have anything for a person or kid to do if you don’t have a friend’s house to go to. Driving to the closest town in our county won’t do any good because theirs nothing there either, and driving to Clarksville is hard to do when I don’t even have gas money.

I’m crying for my little boy right now and trying to figure out how to help him and where in this “backwoods bubba” place I can find what I need to help him. I can’t regret the things that brought me here because what I’ve gained will forever be in my heart and life, but right now I can’t help but wonder what the hell I was thinking!

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